I turned 28 a few weeks ago. It feels a little different. I guess it's considered "late twenties" and that sounds...older. My mom was 28 when she had me. It's weird to think about that. I have friends having babies. That's crazy too. I still feel...young! I feel like a kid myself. I guess I just don't want to grow up. I know I am a grown up, but I relish youthfulness, whims, freedom in ways. I've always heard age is a state of mind. I was talking with a friend who said her older patients don't feel old, they just know they're old because they hurt in the mornings! So maybe the feeling of "not feeling old enough to (fill in the blank with whatever task)" doesn't really go away.
There are moments when I just want to freeze time. I don't want to see my parents get older or deal with the things that age can bring. However, I know we can't change time, or slow it down. So I just remember that each day is a new day and even if I stress out about aging or when to have kids, or what life will be like in a year with jobs, or 5 years, or 20 years, I can't really control it. Life happens and thankfully God is faithful. He doesn't leave us because we are growing up. He desires for us to grow in Him. My husband doesn't have concerns about "getting old" (no surprise there). He says he's even excited about it. I think his main reason to be excited about aging is that the bible equates age with wisdom. If we see what God is teaching us now, in our twenties, we will be able to impart wisdom as we age on. That helps put it into perspective. Life moves forward and we can't stop that. But we can seek to grow in wisdom, hope and love. We can also seek to make a difference in whatever stage of life we are in (student, boss, parent, etc.). I hope that I will be able to age gracefully in the truth that God is with me each step of the way and He wants to prosper me, not harm me - He has a plan and wants to use me! It's so much easier said than lived. Help me Lord.
